Joined: Dec '12
Location: United Kingdom
Age: 50 (M)
Posts: 26
since i was 3 i have been abused constantly. so i grew up very defensive. i thought i would always challenge anything i thought was wrong. this is one of my biggest mistakes. i am just as wrong as anyone. i have taken loads of overdoses (sometimes enough to put a horse into a coma). should i do everyone a favour and try again??? i meant no harm i was only looking for friendship. but through my own fault and defensiveness, should i stop stealing your oxygen?? i have tried to get a gun it would make it so much easier trust me iv tried
Edited by grinding_gaz (13 February 2015 @ 20:43 GMT)
Joined: Nov '11
Location: United Kingdom
Age: 67 (M)
Posts: 3361
FFS man lighten up,we all go through bad times but all you can do is keep going and get through them. I wouldn't take what is said on this forum to heart ( the criticism that is ) just pull yourself together and get on with life.
Joined: Mar '09
Location: Canada
Age: 36 (M)
Posts: 3207
Welcome back man. We all argue now and then. No hard feeling. If u can get past some of the crude humor youll find this is a great place to relax and have some fun. Goodluck to u in the future.
Joined: Mar '09
Location: Canada
Age: 36 (M)
Posts: 3207
No problems here. Things get heated quickly. Its like txt messaging. Theres no way to see facial expressions or emotion so anything can be takin out of context and people get upset easily. Youll learn to tolerate me over time im not all that bad
Joined: May '08
Location: Germany
Age: 51 (M)
Posts: 696
Hi man i was a junky and take heroin and cocaine for over 10years I'm clean now for over 15years. I have find 4 real friends in the time I'm clean but I find a lot of people they say they are friends but they talking only s**t.I know that is a hard feeling.I the first year after my therapy I was I a self help group,and I got a good therapist there.I know is not easy to talk with people,I talk the most time alone with the therapist but it's help me.And I think you can find help there. For me is the the life to 90% s**t but the other 10% that's good I enjoy to 100%
Joined: Dec '12
Location: United Kingdom
Age: 50 (M)
Posts: 26
no my friend im not going to be around anymore. as klash said, not in her words im just a fcuking muppet. and i will stop myself from hurting jokers anymore.........sorry to all. i have become way overdefensive. IT .......I HAVE TO STOP
Joined: Mar '09
Location: Canada
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Posted by grinding_gaz: no my friend im not going to be around anymore. as klash said, not in her words im just a fcuking muppet. and i will stop myself from hurting jokers anymore.........sorry to all. i have become way overdefensive. IT .......I HAVE TO STOP
I called u a muppet, and it was in the middle of our argument. No hard feelings i appologize for whatever was said in the heat of the moment. Stick around ull like it here trust me
Joined: Mar '09
Location: Portugal
Age: 57 (M)
Posts: 1703
Man stick around and you will find that you can forget some bad remarks This is a friendly forum and you are welcome here don´t take the comments so hard sometimes people say some stupid things in the middle of a argument There are in the forum lots of good and nice people
Joined: Dec '12
Location: United Kingdom
Age: 50 (M)
Posts: 26
sorry arsenej1 no offence to you or anyone
Feb-15, 15:24 #30 0
klash23 Joined: Mar '12 Location: United Kingdom Age: 36 (F) Posts: 826 Oh Gaz....Were you only joking?.........I am so disappointed in you....I thought us little women had found someone to protect us from the nasty men on that computer thing. Never mind I suppose we will have to go back to the only way we know how to deal with nasty men.........by saying......"oh bless you,at least you tried."
Arsenej.......Please stop insulting the muppet population.
posted by Klash23 no i'll feelings recieved i know your only speaking the truth
Joined: Mar '09
Location: Canada
Age: 36 (M)
Posts: 3207
Think klash was just goin with what i said. I cant speak for her but im sure shed be happy to have another mobber around. Keep ur head up buddy, lifes as easy as we make it. Forum members come and go, most do eventually make there way back. Its a wonderful place to learn, laugh and sometimes argue. Lots of knowledge on this site poker wise and life in general. Best part is at the end of each day, no one here will judge you.
Joined: Mar '12
Location: United Kingdom
Age: 45 (F)
Posts: 2261
Hey Gaz....I didn't call you a muppet,I was making a joke out of what arsenej said.It was not directed at you in anyway whatsoever. Also this was after you had said your thread was all a joke and hopefully this is what you will be saying in a short while. If you are serious then maybe you should realise this is just a gambling/poker forum where the only words you should be taking seriously are to do with gambling or poker.You will notice that people are still answering your post even after your "joke" post.No one here knows you,this is a worldwide forum,it should have no negative impact on your life whatsoever. If you are telling the truth about your childhood then I would suggest this forum www.isurvive.org/forum/viewtopic.php?f=22&t=6091
Joined: Aug '14
Location: Germany
Age: 43 (M)
Posts: 766
I am really sorry for you mate. Your life seems to have been a real nightmare so far and I would like to say, that better times will most likely come for you, but since I have never experienced such bad things I do not feel to be in a position to do so. Good luck.
Joined: Mar '09
Location: Greece
Age: 47 (F)
Posts: 14136
I dont know what is going on with your life and i bet that no one here does. The only thing i can tell from your post, if everything you are saying is true, is that you have reached a point, where you cant help yourself anymore. Turn to some people who care about yourself and open up a little more, about your life. And i mean in real life with personal touch, not through a blog, email video chat etc. All the best.
Come on guys, this is a wind up. Even if it would be genuine, no one benefits from such a co-dependent relationship, where someones emotional stability is held hostage by the others actions/words. Maybe I missed it, but I don't believe anyone here is responsible for being mean, or overly harsh, so don't feel bad about it, either way.
