Welcome mobsters, if you are reading this blog for the very first time, I thank you for your initial interest. I think that if you give it a little time, you will find something that will peak your interest.
I need something to believe in.
I have been trying to write something, anything for two weeks now. I find myself in a very dark place in my personal life. "Honor", it would seem is a word and concept that most people have forgotten the meaning of entirely.
Trusted friends have proven themselves undeserving of my trust and friendship.
Poker and the BRM calendar game have been the only somewhat decent things in my life over the last week. I have not even been able to find it in me to try and fake being happy to leave messages on the BRM Forums.
Today life has been somewhat better. It is hard for it not to have been better then yesterday when a medication mishap cause my tremendous humiliation and embarrassment with my new personal care worker Valerie.
It was only our third day together and what a nightmare it proved to be for us both. In truth I think I was a lot more upset by the event then she was, but I still feel humiliated.
I have been playing so free rolls on pokerstars and to my surprise have actually built up a small bankroll and might start trying to grind away at the 0.01/0.02 NL tables again.
Sorry but I got to cut this post short now
Wishing you all the best
be cool.
Ronin
keep your head up & keep on going!
