Joined: Dec '09
Location: United Kingdom
Age: 40 (M)
nah did s**t i should have left before i had been up 24 hours and had been drinking the night before left with $30 but i just went a bit crazy a few hands after you left then went on busted the $50 i had left this morning but on the bright side won $250 in a tourney before on stars. Really should have left when i was up over 4 buy ins but hey s**t happens i dont always call an all in with A5 off for $65 against a maniac like you either was good fun il maybe stick some money in this week and return to the tables
Joined: Apr '09
Age: 38 (M)
It's been a long time since I wrote in here. I think I owe it to anyone who was following to describe the eventual downfall:
Basically, September '11 was a fantastic month for me - made a lot of profit, withdrew quite a bit and bought my fiance her engagement ring with some of the profits.
October was a disaster:
A potent combination of
* Playing well outside of my limit ($5/$10 NL HU for example). And general poor bankroll management * Playing under the influence of illicit substances and sometimes after extreme sleep deprivation * Some genuine run-bad (I was considerably under EV) * Playing late at night, drunk - after being out all night at the pub, etc.
Basically, I managed to wipe around $8,000 off my bankroll in around 2 weeks..In the end I withdrew my final $1,000 and left $50 on there for a bit of a play.
I spent this final $50 just being a spazz - I actually ran into BeMyAtmPls whilst doing this!
In the end - I made a profit - I withdrew quite a few thousand over Sept-October and ultimately I've withdrawn more money than I've lost. However - besides the last $1k I took out as a stop-loss, after my last deliberate withdrawal I managed to steadily drop from just under $10K down to nearly bust.
As a result of this dramatic loss - and the fact that real world financial obligations prohibited me from putting a significant amount back on - I took a break. Over Nov and December I basically did not play poker - with a couple small exceptions.
I'm not jaded or anything and this isn't the first time I've built a poker balance into the thousands and then bust. I come from a pretty hectic gambling background so I can handle the loss (mentally). And I take consolation in the fact that during my healthy bankroll period I managed to withdraw quite a bit of money and had a lot of fun along the way.
I did have to take the break though, otherwise it would be hard to build back up and keep any interest in the game. I also had been neglecting my university work - and I'm now a final year student and need to put a bit more focus there.
I've started playing again - as PKR have given me a $75 birthday present (cash in my account) + some free tournament tickets.
If I manage to find some discipline and build up my roll again playing MTTs, I may continue this blog. Time will tell.
Joined: Nov '09
Age: 52 (M)
Good idea to take a break after that kind of a dip Jess. You have more poker skills than most of the people on this forum, myself included, so when you do decide to come back full force I know you will do well. I've had two very serious dips this month as well, so I can relate to the "Oh sh*t" feeling, although the influences that cause me to play poorly aren't the same as yours. When you are ready to go back you will know it. GL dude.
Joined: Mar '09
Age: 44 (F)
You took the most appropriate decision. Probably you should have done that a bit earlier than losing the 8k in just 2 weeks. You do described the no goes for playing poker and the good thing is that you can see your mistakes. I hope you wont repeat them this year.gl