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I am a semi-pro poker player and an author. I am currently working on several projects for publication, and will be discussing them on occasion in this blog. If you are a fan then I warn you,[...] Read more » Poker Tips, Bankroll Management and More (PART 42)
Joined: Mar '11
Location: United Kingdom
Age: 55 (M)
Posts: 7371
Congratulations to you on losing losing all that weight and if you keep going like that you will start to see things in a different light and perhaps get some happiness back in your life. Please keep us updated and good luck to you
Joined: Dec '13
Location: Croatia
Age: 34 (M)
Posts: 716
I'm really sad to read this, keep your head up mate. I'm sure you'll get past these troubles that are bothering you. I will be following your blog and hopefully your next text will be about how you managed to battle through this crisis! Good luck and never stop fighting
Joined: Nov '12
Location: Canada
Age: 55 (M)
Posts: 4675
I can not help but wonder if I was to open an honest in this blog post. I wrote it and then immediately sent it out. I fear people might read it and think I am looking for sympathy. I am NOT! I am however, In a very scary place in my head and trying to get my s**t together. Wishing you all the best.
Joined: Feb '13
Location: United Kingdom
Age: 47 (F)
Posts: 2372
Hi Ronin
When I was at university we had to keep a daily diary of our work. I used to have this quote stuck on the front of it (and it still makes me cry) but it is so true. This came from the film Coach Carter. If you have never seen it, I suggest you do, its an awesome film...
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
Joined: Oct '08
Location: Canada
Age: 66 (M)
Posts: 2423
WOW, interesting blog which i will follow, i already knew about your weight issues, and i also know about the problems you have with spouts of depression, the issue you talk here about playing and wanting to lose, is also a sign of depression. I believe you are a smart person, and can work around your dailey problems. i think if you put your mind forward and continue working on your book you will susceed in what you do. good luck ronin, and i look forward in reading this blog
Well, keep up mate the winter already over now, so the Sun is coming and is coming hard I must have 2 tell ya. I am not saying everything will be better but try managing your problems with 'baby steps' so more step you'll take the better will feel yourself after taking them. And about the poker part - stop using it to blow your steam and it will be okay.
Joined: Feb '11
Location: United States
Age: 58 (M)
Posts: 37
I wish to say gl gl with the health quest. The one thing that will see you reach your goals is something all great poker players must have...Persistence! Don't give up! Don't quit! Don't relax til you get to where you want to be. In life as in poker, Persistence conquers all.
